The day seemed like many others as I headed down the highway to show a visiting friend my horses. But my life was forever changed as my car was hit and sent flying through the air, smashed into a telephone pole and came to rest in the ditch.
Somewhere in the commotion I died. I still have no memory of the actual crash or anything that followed for days. The only thing I know about that time is that I left my crumpled car and headed through a dark tunnel-only my body wasn’t with me.
There is no doubt that I was still “me.” The only difference was that I wasn’t physical anymore.
When I “came to” days later in the hospital, my mom and my good friend Mike were standing by my bed. I knew nothing about what had happened to the car or why I was in the hospital. My experience of dying and standing in the Presence of a tremendous Being of Light who reviewed my life with me was the only thing I could think about.
I was given insight unlike anything I had ever known. It was as if I was allowed to look through the eyes of God and experience a kind of Love that no words could ever describe. There was no judgment but only Love-pure unconditional Love.
I understood what I needed to do in order to be all that I was intended to be and I felt that I was being given a choice to return to do it. I begged for the chance although it wasn’t out of fear. It felt as if I was a child who dearly loved this being of Light. I wanted nothing more than to emulate what I was feeling and share it with others.
I clearly saw that I was created to be so much more and that the emotions I felt toward others while on earth had an affect on them. I was given an understanding about things that I knew nothing about before that time. I didn’t want to come back but I knew I had to. I knew I had things to do and that is the only reason I begged to come back.
So when I awoke in the hospital, I was determined to put to use what I had learned. I didn’t know how but I was determined to change myself and make the world a better place.
HA! That turned out to be a tall order once I found myself back in my body trying to do it. From over there, it seemed so easy. From here, it seemed impossible.
My teenage years before my wreck were filled with a lot of anger and confusion about life. I was very cynical and irreverent toward many things-God and an afterlife especially. I had claimed that there couldn’t be either. I had learned through some bad experiences that I couldn’t trust people who I should have been able to trust and I was very bitter about it.
So there I was, laying in a hospital bed wanting to be so much more than I had been and having no idea how to go about it.
So my story is about my struggle to change. It seems that things just easily fall into place for some people. Others have to work for everything they get. I was one that always seemed to struggle with things. But I never gave up.
My goal became to find a way to be at peace with myself and life and to be able to Love unconditionally. I wanted to experience that feeling once again that is impossible to describe but has never been forgotten.
Loving unconditionally is something I aspire to but in the true sense of the word, I’m not sure it is possible as a human dealing with life here on earth. The vibration I was a part of and experienced as unconditional Love was just that in its purest form. It was a feeling of peace and tranquility that isn’t easy to come by here on earth.
But I have come a long, long way. There are so many things that changed my life in ways I never suspected could happen. Rescuing a dog named Beau is just one of them. I imagine there must have been quite a flurry of activity going on behind the scenes to get us together. I didn’t make it easy but somehow it happened anyway. I know now that he was an angel sent to rescue ME, not the other way around!
It is those experiences that caused me to grow and change for the better that I love to share in the hope they will inspire others to do the same thing.
I’ve experienced the power thoughts and beliefs have. They can drag us down or catapult us to success. I have seen everything from yearly life threatening accidents stop when I changed my thinking to watching my fingertip become reattached. It healed without even leaving scar from the mental work I did on it after an accident. It’s pretty wild to think about what we are capable of. Considering the shape the world is in, I think it is time for all of us to become all we are meant to be.
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